Girl, It's Plain to See......

You ever love someone so much, that you want things to go as fast as possible? If you have ever been in love..... I know you have had this feeling. You may have been strong enough to hold back that desire, and your relationship was probably better for it. Those who rush, most likely, have had different results. Think about it. Going too fast in anything usually ends badly. If you drive too fast, you wreck. If you eat too fast, you get a bellyache. If you drink too fast, you get sick. If you do anything too fast, it gets messed up. Enough examples? I love my girl so much, and I wanted everything to happen right now. I care deeply for her, and I wanted her to have the same feelings immediatly. She is my #1 priority, and I wanted to be hers. She is my world, and I wanted to be hers. These are alot of expectations in a short amount of time. It must be stressful, and I think it has hurt us. I just hope that it hasn't changed her true feelings for me. All I want is for her to be happy. That's all. I do want to be the one that does it for her, and I have to do my best to let her know how I really feel. I am going to attempt to do that in this "peace offering". The only reason I am writing about this is this..... It has been hard to talk about it, mostly because neither of us feels like the other one understands the others point of view.

Bella, I love you. You know I do. I tell you on a daily basis. I do so only so a day never goes by that you have to wonder "Does he love me?" I do. The moment I ever layed my eyes on you ,in that smokey bar, I said to myself(after I caught my breathe) "Wow, she is beautiful!" You were so beautiful, funny. loud, sexy, charming, etc...... And you sre still all those things, and even more so today. I developed a huge crush on you, and I could not wait for every Wednesday to roll around. I could not believe it when, weeks later, I felt your kiss. And as quick as I thought I had her you in my grasp.... you disappeared. I don't remember ever having your phone number.... I only remembering waiting for every Wednesday to come so I could see your pretty face. Time passed, and so did the thoughts of you, until that one day. That one day. I remember it like it is in slow motion in my head. I can recall it anytime I want. I had been up since the buttcrack of dawn to play in a softball tournament. I reember the day so well. It was freezing and just plain miserable. To top it off, we had lost in the championship game. I hate losing, and I remember just wanting to go home. Fate would not have it that way. It was the only right thing to do.... Go to our sponser, give them the trophy(for second place), have one last drink with the guys until we meet again in spring. I was dirty, tired and just plain grumpy. Then it happened. You walked through the door and time just stopped for a second. So did my heart. I did not know if you would recognize me. I didn't know if I wanted you to. I was a wreck. About a half went by, and I was sure you had no clue who I was. I had no idea what to say, but I knew I had to say something. "Hi, Jess." That's the poetry that I came up with. Brilliant. We got to talking, and you said...."We should go out for a drink sometime." Who me? Again, i had no idea what to say. I think I managed something like "Sure". Hey, I am a smooth talker! I was so happy when I left that place. I was probably singing love songs all the way home. Needless to say, it has turned into something pretty special. I hope you'd agree. Let's not fight. Forget the petty stuff. I am sorry for being over zealous. I am sorry for getting upset at the trivial things. I'll have to admit that I am unsure of the right way to do this love thing. I want to. I want to be everything you dream of a man being. I want you to feel the way you dream of. I want you to smile. I want all your friends to say "Quit smiling all the time! Why are you so happy?" All the while, they'll know why.... and they'll hate it! I can't be Matthew McConahey..... but, maybe someday I'll be able to say "He can't be me, either!" I have been overbearing. I apologize. i really do. It has been tearing me apart watching us fall. I only want to be your man. I want to do everything for you. For me. For us. You mean the world to me.... just give me a chance to show you. I love you Mama.


Brian Mcknight - Back at one

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