Rebirth and Purpose....

I have had alot of reasons over the years to stop living life. Not that I have not been living.... but, I have not been "living". To understand that sentence you would have to be crazy.... so, if you did, You are crazy. That will be $150, please pay my receptionist. Anyways, what I mean is this, I have been alive. That's not saying much. All you have to do to be alive is eat, drink, shit and sleep. That's it. God did not make this difficult. Now, to live, is a challenge.

I have decided to stop being alive, and start living. It's the most difficult thing I have ever committed to. Life is short is what they say. Not if you don't want it to be is what I say. If there are things about you and your life that you do not like.....CHANGE THEM!!! Simple. Make a list. Have inspirations. Have faith. Know what you want, and get it. I made a list.... wanna see it? Here it go.....

In no particular order....

I am out of shape. I need to change this. I need to change my diet( not completely). I need to exercise more. So, I will. My inspiration? To be a better softball player, no, to be the best softball player in Warren. Also, I have the sexiest girl alive.... and she deserves me to be at my best. Why? So, I am around long enough to live my life with her. To watch our yet to be born kids grow up. To have endless energy for her, so I can take care of her in every way.

I am practically broke. I need to change this. I need to work more. I need to save. So, I will. My inspiration? To have money. Not a hard one to understand. Why? Well, to pay bills, to take vacations, to have nice things, to support my family one day. I need to follow my dreams. so, again, I will.

I am held back emotionally. I need to change this. My inspiration? To be happy. To remove this very heavy weight on my shoulders. To be able to smile more. I need to get over some things. I need to let some things go. I need to let some people go. You are holding me back. I need to heal. I need to love, I need to be loved. So, I will.

This is the tip of the iceberg, but things will come together if I can work on these simple things. Well, ok.... maybe they're not so simple, but, if I can count on some support from the people I have in my life.... I will be ok.


My heart beats once again.....

What once was broken has been healed. How? The look in her eyes fixes it a little. Her smile fixes it some more. Her kisses do it. The smell of her hair works. But, mostly, it is this feeling inside of me when she walks into the room. If you have something that is broken.... get some of this in your life. Just make sure it is not my girl. She is mine. And, as long as she'll have me.......Well, she'll have me.